th IMPERFECT girl that is STRUGGLING so hard to meet th EXPECTATIONS of this CRUEL WORLD with nothing but a PAPERHEART on her that is TORN and WEATHERED by HARSH CIRCUMSTANCES.
i dunno wat i want. but certainly not left alone at the wrong time. really find tt humans are hard to please(inc myself).. man.. wat do they want? i can onli answer a honest dunno. u ask me if im feeling okay. but, will u take no for an answer? ive told u upteen times im not. but im nvr rendered a choice. i'll be lying if i say yes. if u ask me wat happen, pigs could fly. can u just show more concern? but nvm. i must learn contentment.
love.
yeah. losing myself control like nobody's business. i hate it. realised tt i hate a lot of things tt im doing now. i felt the sudden urge to d something tt day. luckily i didnt. dunno y. everytime im angry i'll be tempted to do something tt i previously did a few years back. i regretted. i stopped. but now.. the feeling to do it is coming back..
get a grip!
i dunnno how may times im rejected. even when i tried it the first time. i was rejected, case closed. but the feeling of rejection is not exactly fantastic. i mean they just tell u 'no'. it kills all your confidence la. im trying not to give up hope.
