th IMPERFECT girl that is STRUGGLING so hard to meet th EXPECTATIONS of this CRUEL WORLD with nothing but a PAPERHEART on her that is TORN and WEATHERED by HARSH CIRCUMSTANCES.

IWILLOVEUU~

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crossroads.

dilema.

我不断地问自己，好想知道答案。为什么一切会有今天的局面。我一直以来把一切当成理所当然。我一直以来依赖着你。我要求你为我付出，但却从未为你着想过。我好像真得太过分了。但是，你不是第一天认识我。难道，你视不出我时真或假吗？你，听不出我的语气吗？也许因为我认为你能，而造成了我们俩现在所在的处境。难道真是这样吗？那我真的错了。错在自己太信任你。我感到自己像是被出卖了，被刮了一巴掌。也许你认为这没什么大不了的，你，只不过是与你班上的同学重复了我所说的话。我好难过。因为，现在的我，觉得你并不怎么了解我。

无声呐喊。

我不想失去你这个朋友！

我好像对自己说：‘没关系，排名并不是全部。就算考不好，尽力了，有奈何得了谁呢？’但是，我办不到。现实如此残酷，当我成绩不再像以前一样好时，朋友会疏远我吗？我已没有利用价值了，在功课上帮不了他们。他们会与我做朋友吗？我，没什么可畏的内在美，又有谁会要与我这种整天愁眉不展的人做朋友呢？我的思想狭窄，什么东西都做不好，真是着世界的败类。难道不是吗？

i feel lousy. terrible. at th last day of th week so, it's like WTH. ppl onli have monday blues. not friday blues. but seriously. i feel broken once again. i was so alright this week. then something just have to come and WHOOSH, everything goes down th hill.

I HATE IT WHEN PPL XPECT ME TO REPLY THEIR MSGS BUT DUN REPLY MINE.

ive been able to control myself a lot more lately. didnt do it for around 4 days le. which is like, a very great improvemt to me. i feel as if i didnt do it for like one month? im jusrt too reliant on it. but, alas. all things work tgt for good.

it really helped. thanks. =)

feeling 'on high' today. but i didnt do anything foolish. at least, not yet. n hope i wont. gonna go back to my homework soon.

routined-life.

exams coming. band stopped. it's like finally time for me to catch up. time for me to 'relax' & 'learn' at th same time. however hard it is to cope. i can onli say i'll try.

they are not excuses. thinkings and feelings are different. there's nothing much i can say regarding this. but .. self multilation is definitely not a pleasure. so see things in th wrong light.