th IMPERFECT girl that is STRUGGLING so hard to meet th EXPECTATIONS of this CRUEL WORLD with nothing but a PAPERHEART on her that is TORN and WEATHERED by HARSH CIRCUMSTANCES.
ha.. stop acting like u guys noe me can? i really hate it- all the stuff.. it's so crab n lobster. why do u all make me feel so full of hatred. when i go with u all, u say i dull, nvr smile. when i nvr tok to u all, u say i angry w u. pls la. then wat dou expect me to do? be like a puppet n smile/laugh when u tell me to do tt? ask urself. u are subconciously over-riding my feelings. u dun allow me to feel sad. u want me to laugh when i feel terrible. do u noe how tiring n painful this is? to force a smile everytime u want me to? im just lidat, with this wierd behaviour n attitude. then u think urs very good meh? forget it. think wat u want. it's not my problem. do u think i like the way im carrying myself? no. u are wrong. i hate it too. but wat can i do? so pls stop wat u are currently doing.
attitude.
it has been two months plus. we didnt tok; i didnt confide. he left; i cried. but.. did he even care? i think not. it is impossible now to go back to my sec1 life where i dun feel tt fed-up. be it with emotions or friends. but now.. with more friends, more problem. the moment u break away, they will talk behind u. so is this really friends? who noes? im tired.
