th IMPERFECT girl that is STRUGGLING so hard to meet th EXPECTATIONS of this CRUEL WORLD with nothing but a PAPERHEART on her that is TORN and WEATHERED by HARSH CIRCUMSTANCES.
fever, flu, cough. using this as an excuse not to do work. my grades r dropping like nobody's business. the A1s are becoming Bs or even Cs. the two Bs are becoming Cs or worse still, fail. i was never like this. i cant bear to see my grades continue to drop. i really cant catch up with the hectic schedule. never-ending. i dunno wat to say about myself. pride comes before a fall. i was so happy with my MYEs. first. the glory and honour, striving for my ultimate goal. but now, all the passion is gone. nothing. just an empty shell. someone who feels and have no choice but to admit tt yes, sometimes, i do act like a gangster. my blood is boiling. i shout at them. there is no respect in my dictionary. quarrels after quarrels. tell me. how am i supposed to manage my relationships, studies, feelings and everything at one go? im close to bursting. stress. but who noes it? people around me says u no need to study oso A one la. like real. A. cant even bear to think of the result. thinking of how much effort i have put in. but im wrecking it myself now. i seriously dun understand. ive split myself into too many diff parts.
going mental. IMH.
common test is just 2 weeks away. i dun feel like studying at all. Eng and HMT paper have past. i felt no confidence in scoring. i was not prepared. and now.. the rest. maths class test. think i'll fail. used wrong formular. 8 marks gone. over 20. am i lucky enough to be correct in the rest of the questions? i hate to think. Science Class test. dunno wat to say. lucky class test dun need sign. am i able to score? i dunno. i feel a sudden surge of just not doing anything. just heck care bout EVERYTHING> but i noe i cant. cos of my pride. i want to be the first in the overall exam. but im refusing to work hard. im taking tt it's a must tt i will score well. im crazy. i noe.
